for the past few days I was so stressed and worried about someone. i wasn't worried about myself but for someone else. those moments brought back memories from my GT days. GT or graduate team is also known as counselor/mother/friend rolled into one. it is a very unique job that I always have a hard time explaining what I really do in my job.
fast forward, I went back to my university and visited my friends. spent the entire weekend talking to them and catching up about thesis, academics, new jobs and even LOVE LIFE! so sad, I still don't have one. :( I'm happy to see them again, with fresh perspectives, new insights and crazy ideas.
life is meant to be shared.
we shared the same smiles and tears since we were in the university.
we shared the same passions in life even if we chose different careers.
we shared the same love for people even if we have different ways to show them.
we also cried.
we cried for the things that aches our hearts.
we cried for the people whom we really love.
we cried out to God for all the frustrations we had in our lives.
we prayed for the people we love.
even for our students who really don't know us.
we prayed for ambitions that we want to achieve.
I thought my GT days are finally over. I don't live in Laguna now and we already have a new GT. that was what I thought. But God showed me a different place to conquer. he wanted me to be a GT to my new set of students. they are not university students. they are different from the students we have in the university. their lives are more complicated and stressful. I still don't know what to do with them. I can only listen to them and help them in any way I can. I don't know if they think of me as a friend or as a teacher or just a stranger who they talk to because they are bored and sad.
I don't know. I really don't know.
I don't know... but my heart to serve them and love them is there. I just hope that they would recognize that.
fast forward, I went back to my university and visited my friends. spent the entire weekend talking to them and catching up about thesis, academics, new jobs and even LOVE LIFE! so sad, I still don't have one. :( I'm happy to see them again, with fresh perspectives, new insights and crazy ideas.
life is meant to be shared.
we shared the same smiles and tears since we were in the university.
we shared the same passions in life even if we chose different careers.
we shared the same love for people even if we have different ways to show them.
we also cried.
we cried for the things that aches our hearts.
we cried for the people whom we really love.
we cried out to God for all the frustrations we had in our lives.
we prayed for the people we love.
even for our students who really don't know us.
we prayed for ambitions that we want to achieve.
I thought my GT days are finally over. I don't live in Laguna now and we already have a new GT. that was what I thought. But God showed me a different place to conquer. he wanted me to be a GT to my new set of students. they are not university students. they are different from the students we have in the university. their lives are more complicated and stressful. I still don't know what to do with them. I can only listen to them and help them in any way I can. I don't know if they think of me as a friend or as a teacher or just a stranger who they talk to because they are bored and sad.
I don't know. I really don't know.
I don't know... but my heart to serve them and love them is there. I just hope that they would recognize that.
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